First of all let me say, Welcome to MyLittleBlueberry.com, we are now officially a Website! Hooray! Many new and exciting things are in the works for the near future. For starters you can now get a hold of me at my shiny new e-mail address: oneraddad@mylittleblueberry.com Spiffy! Soon I plan on replacing the very cluttered "Important Dates" section with some form of calendar application. This should make it easier to follow along with our timeline. I have to apologize for the standings on the current Poll, it turns out I spelt "Zoe Sidone", when I meant "Zoe Sidoni", thus leading to an unfair disadvantage. So now the ballot has been spoiled, and we'll have to wait for Florida to recount their votes. However it appears "Lucas Ryker" was the current leader followed by "Phoenix Aurora"! Hopefully come Wednesday we'll have a better idea of who to vote for, wink, wink!
Yup, Wednesday is the big "U" the moment that I can't wait to experience, yet the one that will most likely scare the living hell out of me. That will be the moment when this whole thing becomes very, very, real! Right now, it's seems very Surreal, I'm really just going by what everyone is telling me. I mean, I've heard the heartbeat sure, but it was a sound that came from a thing that looked like a Fisher Price tape recorder! That could have been anything, right!? I don't feel anything weird going on inside me. Mommy complains about cramps, and I take her word for it. Usually I have no choice!
Now I get to see exactly what it is all this fuss is about. What it is that's going to be a such a huge part of my life. What it is that freaks me out whenever I think about it for longer than 15 minutes. (I can't think about anything for longer than 15 minutes without it freaking me out, really.) I guess my biggest concern, is that I'm stuck in this cycle of "hurry up and wait". Everyone says, "Enjoy it! It's the only time you'll have to yourself for awhile!", well I don't want time to myself not knowing what's going on! I want to see what's going on. I want to know what it is I'm having so I don't have to keep referring to it, as "it"! I guess I feel kind of detached referring to the baby in the third person. I'm waiting for it to hit a little closer to home. Waiting for the sun to dart behind a cloud, to see what's just over the horizon.
